I wonder - what do all of us want for our children. As I understand, every child is doing some form of "tuition" at home.

So what is the point of arrohi, what is this learning which is "led" by children

Back home after 3 days at K Campus, it all seems such a luxury. Yet there was a sense of peace there which is missing here

Other day at Bodichipalli someone pointed to Pranav and said - he is a BIG rowdy. This stuck to my mind, it tore my heart. I spoke to Amma. She told me the story of my uncle who went to Srilanka in the kallakappal ( illegal boat), how he was caught by police etc. And she told me how her mon used to say about that uncle - all fingers will not be the same. Today this uncle is the one who has such excellent relationship with all and binds my Moms family together.

It helped me calm down and not worry about the rowdy label.

Back at campus today.. Missed all the fun and action I feel. Surveyor has finally given a date of 12th May. So things should close out now. Actually quite tired today, but it has been an interesting day. Things are slowly settling down and getting into some pace and momentum of heir own. 

Been wondering - I encourage children to play with toys, you want to play... then play with toys, not with something natural such as water or rice or dal or any such thing. I have many rules governing the use of these, and wean away child from playing with natural elements and moving towards playing with toys. Wondering where I make these rules, this looks so paradoxical to me when I reflect

My Mom - my insipartion

My mom is my inspiration - she does so many things, gets involved in so many things, blind school, ashvasan, unnati and then her passion / devotion to music. She goes to the doctor herself, gets her medicines herself and in addition is always there to support each one of us in whatever we do. Yesterday, she had gone to the doctor for her routine check-up and he asked her to do an ECG. Report indicates that she possibly had an heart attack some time ago. My whole world came tumbling... I was quiet, worried, wondering.... And then I spoke to her. She said - I am ready, I have done my bit on earth. I dont want to go running from doctor to doctor and checkup to checkup. Whatever happens, however it happens - I am ready. Now she is back to her usual self - her music class, visiting her brother and sisters.... But I am not ready yet....

Day before, Aditi-Ratnesh Mathur  and Venugopal Maddukuri had to leave in a hurry. Lunch was half done and many things were happenning. There was no vehicle either, so me and kids had to manage on our own. I was wondering - Aditi ne kaise manage kiya. Initially I was waiting for the kids to come. That was leaving me challenged with so many things to do. Then I shared with children, sat in circle and we discussed responsibilities and how they can help.  One child said, if there was a clock which would announce who would announce what needs to be done and by whom ( I am understanding it NOW as to remind without being emotional about it), one more child said if there was a robot which would do all the work and so on. After sometime, I realised that if I am clear what my expectations are and I communicate clearly, then we are able to work it out. Then we started having more discussions and more circle times and I realised that if I give option, they understand that there is an option, if I dont give option then they understand that as well. If I crib and complain, their response is in one way, If I ask with clarity, their response is different